My personal work has been very Fetch based lately. I have been using a different focus with some Taoist mechanics to really ground into Fetch first before making HA. I have found it to be very helpful for sustainably maintaining connection to Godsoul more throughout the day, outside of meditation. Upon rereading Etheric Anatomy, I remembered the part of my training that talked about a different way to focus on the 3 souls, that of their "aura" within the body. The energy body of Fetch is the aura of your whole body that extends only about a half inch. The body of this soul is the energy of your physical body, so I have been revisiting a lot of my qigong. This ties in with healing from my injury as well. I am far from perfect here, I have a lot of work to go, as part of caring for Fetch is caring for the physical body. To be totally in 100% alignment at all times, one has to have a healthy physical body, which is very difficult. There is no judgment here. I haven't met a single person, initiate or not, who is 100% in alignment at all times, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't kindly strive for it. There is always room for improvement in everything we do, we always are growing and moving. When we think we have perfected something, it can become stagnant. If you are perfect in something, why keep at it? There is no way to improve perfection, so why try?
Most of us expect self perfection, but self perfection is an illusion, so why do we torture ourselves?
Because, for what ever reason, pain is the most effective catalyst for growth within the human condition, initially anyway. I like to think that at some point growth will come for growth's sake, but in reality if I look back on my path, it has been the very painful times that have spurred the most movement. If you are comfortable all the time, what is the drive to change? What would make you get out of bed and do something? Without discomfort, I suspect life wouldn't have evolved past single celled organisms.
But does that mean we are doomed to suffer for our whole lives? I guess that depends on who you ask. I am personally not a Buddhist, so I think that the goal is not to escape pain, but to accept it and move on. Our brains are wired to retain painful memory far more readily than pleasurable experiences. Its evolutionary, we need to remember the painful things so we can avoid them in the future. But we can make a concerted effort to remember the good things too! Why do we forget amazing, ecstatic trance experiences, but remember the mean thing our mother did to us when we were 10? The answer, with so many other things, is knowledge. By being aware of how our brains work, we become less bound by their patterns. By being in the moment, being aware, and being as aligned as we can be, we can make choices to change our patterns. But it requires action, intent, and purpose.
And then shitty things will still happen again.
But hopefully we can use the things we have learned to make those shitty events less painful and not hang on as long. We can remember "Oh, I need to do Kala now. I need to not throw this painful energy down into the subconscious abyss of Fetch. I can look at it here, look at it now, and transform it. I can take right action in the moment to minimize the fallout. I can act in Love and in True Will. I can Be!"